"A farmer spends his days plowing rows and planting seeds

and come October he knows what will grow

it's been that way since time began and it will never change

You will always reap just what you sow

My life is made of seeds

Every one I plant becomes part of me

Good or bad ones I must choose

And I should think about the future when I do

Cause when the harvest finally comes

I will reap what I've become."

I got news today that my Grandpa Evan passed away suddenly. He was at the young age of 91. Only another week and he would have been 92! My mom had talked to him the night before and they were making plans to go to his cousin's 100th birthday party this weekend. It's funny how life can change in an instance. Make's you remember that we are on God's time and that He has a plan for us.

Evan married my Grandma when I was in high school. He wanted someone to travel with and my grandma said she would only do that if they were married! They spent years traveling around the United States collecting magnets for their fridge and visiting temples. They loved working in the temple and they were both working in the temple the day I went through the temple for the first time. Evan took such good care of my grandma who is as stubborn as the the day is long. She said in her life sketch that she finally realized what love was being married to Evan. You see, my grandmother has been widowed 4 times now. She said when I went to visit her today, "You go through hard times to see what you are made of." And I said back to her, "Then you must be made of steel!"

I was thinking about how unfair this was for my grandma and why did she have to loose yet another husband. We all thought it would be much better if she went before Evan. One time I was talking to my grandma and she said she is not afraid of dying she is ready to go, however, she wished that her and Evan could go together at the same time while they were sleeping. I wished that for her too. I'm sad for my grandma. I watched as she went into her lonely room my mom tucked her into bed and put a pillow up next to her so she would have the comfort of something leaning up to her keeping her warm.

"I will stand before the Savior when this life comes to an end

Will the seeds I have sown have made me more like Him"

I know my grandma is alone now. But I can't help but thinking that all of her loved ones that have passed before are preparing for her arrival, and what a great reunion that will be for her. I know there is life after this and because of this I know FAMILIES ARE FOREVER! I love you Evan!

*words from the song, "What I've Become" by Doug Walker